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Two Roads
Posted:Sep 17, 2020 8:06 pm
Last Updated:Sep 20, 2020 1:15 pm
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The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves, no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.



This is the poem that was running through my mind those years ago as I was trying to live the life I was meant to live or ending my life.

One evening I was sitting in a grove of trees I had planted when I was 13 years old. My life was lost as I had known since I was 4 years old I was in the wrong body. My disclosure of this had ended a 17 year marriage and alienated me from my best friend. I had a sawed off shotgun in my lap as this poem ran through my mind over and over. It was because of it I decided to allow myself the authentic life I deserved rather than end my life.I started on hormones the next day.

Now knowing what I do, with a lost career as I found nobody would hire me in my field, With a loss of every family member in my life to include my , with 2 sexual assaults under my belt, and being fired 4 times from shit jobs just because of who I am, homeless twice, Living in utter solitude as refuse to allow people to feitishize me and use me, I now realize the obvious choice I should have made all those years ago was to pull the trigger.
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The reason sex downy mean that much to me.
Posted:Oct 19, 2020 7:09 pm
Last Updated:Oct 20, 2020 6:33 pm
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Well, during a time of not being able to find a job, homeless and living in my car I turned to selling my body as a means to get by.

Fastfoward 3 years after I had done things they wanted let's say between 3 and 4 thousand times it just kind of loses meaning and purpose. It's like the guy who loves to golf so he becomes a golf pro. After working at it and being a job, he finds his hobby is no longer fun and has turned into work.

That said, I actually love sex when a few specific bells are rung. 1st being a respectful friendship with a person who's company I enjoy. By respectful I mean in the open and sharing friends and being on adventures that have nothing to do with sex. 2nd I need a deep mental connection with that person who actually listens to what I want and doesn't make me feel used by leaving 4 minutes after he gets off.

Yea, the same shit most men on here want is nothing I participate in. Even though I'm probably never going to have sex with another person in my lifetime because of my point of view. I am not and will never again allow myself to be somebodies sex toy. Want in my pants? You have to be willing to give more of yourself than your penis.
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It's not you, it's me
Posted:Oct 19, 2020 6:59 am
Last Updated:Oct 19, 2020 7:15 am
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Nothing brings more feelings of dysphoria and inadequacy like that statement. Hearing it does nothing more than make a girl feel too ugly to ever be more than a sex toy.

It is one of the most heartbreaking statement any woman can ever hear. What is being said is that you have a fatal flaw and I am afraid to tell you exactly what it is.
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It is What it is
Posted:Oct 17, 2020 6:15 am
Last Updated:Oct 20, 2020 6:33 pm
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I used dream about what life would be like after I got my surgeries. And of getting a job I loved doing. And finding a person so enamored that we could have a wonderful life together.

Now reality has and I know none of that rose colored glasses shit will ever happen.

Now I dream of quietly passing in my sleep knowing that nobody gives enough of a shit care and that I won't even be found dead until the rent is past due.
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Here is the reality.
Posted:Oct 16, 2020 10:35 pm
Last Updated:Oct 20, 2020 6:33 pm
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I was contacted via messaging by a gold person looking for nsa sex. My first question was did you read my profile. He said he had but was just hoping.

My reply was, As I've used get paid do what you want I have a real problem with just giving it you without getting what I want. I will never sell my body again, but if you are unwilling justify my very existence by showing the courtesy of treating like a human being and taking out on a real date, well Its been over a year since I've had sex. I'm willing never have sex again the rest of my life if my existence is not justified.

I bet I never hear from that one again either. Is every man on here a selfish pric I think so.
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Enough already
Posted:Oct 15, 2020 3:32 am
Last Updated:Oct 20, 2020 6:33 pm
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Stop telling I am using this site wrong. It's my body and my choice decide who I want be with. Most of the men here act like entitled year olds off camp for the first time in their lives. The actual numbers tell the true story.

There are 1.8 million men seeking trans women. There are less than 51000 trans women seeking men here. That means there are 35 men for every trans woman. more than 2 times as many as even CIS women which is 19 to 1.

That in itself gives me the ability to make this site what I want it. I want and deserve respect. the biggest aspect of that respect is to expect a real date in public so I can see how you handle yourself around people and I can decide if I want to go further than that.

Grow the fuck and man you closet case men. Stop being afraid to show the world what you desire. I will never let another man treat me like a sex worker again and no woman ever should.
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Sex talk
Posted:Oct 14, 2020 3:44 am
Last Updated:Oct 20, 2020 6:33 pm
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Thirsty sex talk before you actually meet a person is absolutly stupid. The chat rooms here are tools to set up that first meeting. Nothing says I'm not interested in doing anything but get in a person pants like meaningless sex talk.

For me, I want to see how a person handles themselves in public with me, before I ever decide if I want them in my bed. And I'm not easy to get. You have to work on it and prove you are a grown up.

Just because you married the wrong person when you were too young does not give you permission to act like a 16 year old boy saying innapropriate things and making a fool out if yourself. That's actually a very unattractive thing and another reason to not even set up that first meeting.
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Static loop
Posted:Oct 8, 2020 7:21 am
Last Updated:Oct 8, 2020 8:06 am
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Im am stuck in a static loop. Never able move forward, with no desire ever go backward. The thing that can change this is intervention from an outside force. The problem is, I am too pathetic to ever have an outside force act upon me.

The thing society is able do is make me lay still while I get fucked over and over, never receiving enjoyment or satisfaction myself.
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This is for trans women.
Posted:Oct 5, 2020 6:54 pm
Last Updated:Oct 20, 2020 6:33 pm
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Every trans woman in America that lets men have their way on the down low in a discreet manner is being treasonous every one of her trans sisters.

If they they want a dirty little secret, make them go a pro who will require compensation be the dirty little secret. Any man who thinks they are unable disclose their true desires everyone in their life should be required take that route.

If trans women are ever going be accepted by the whole of society, down low sex must end on a free basis. Girls in America on this site there are 1.8 million men coveting 51 k trans women. We have true power make change. We just all have be together in using it. And not just on this site, but in every aspect of life.
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A new twist from men who can't seem to read a profile
Posted:Sep 28, 2020 7:46 am
Last Updated:Oct 16, 2020 11:43 am
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Twice this morning I have had men come on to me, looking for down low sex, which I don't participate in. But here is the rub. Not only do they want down low. They want travel them, and get my own hotel room so they can get what they want.

FFS boys. I can take down low dick all day, every day if I said yes it, and never leave my house. Now they want me to front the bill too.

Some people are never going to get laid.
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The falicy and reason they want you to believe your "Way of life" is being attacked
Posted:Sep 27, 2020 5:59 am
Last Updated:Sep 27, 2020 8:32 am
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What is it about? What does it mean?

It is a blanket, spy vs spy phrase that allows a person demonize others irrationally

If your way of life is pure hate of things you don't understand, maybe you need change your perception. In what world is it right bitch about allowing the government being a death panel, but you will let a board of directors of an insurance company assume the role of death panel? All the time paying o9ujt 30% of your gross income to the for profit bastards and still having deductibles and co pays so high that any major illness is a bankruptcy event?

Is your way of life about religious prejudice? I content that every Bible thumper, or Quran thumper or name your text thumper out there is as atheist as I am. All they have to do is apply the exact same criteria that they use to deny the existence of all the other deities to the one they believe in.

Here's a simple truth that nobody seems to want to accept.

Mitch McConnell, leader of the congressional republicans has been in national service for 26 years. He has 26 million dollars in the bank.

Nancy Pelosi, Congressional leader of the democrats, has been in national service for 22 years. She has 22 million dollars in the bank.

The point is that each and every one of them, regardless of party is taking money from the highest bidder to secure their votes and stands. They get away with this by keeping the population divided on issues that make no difference, but keep people fighting and bickering instead of watching what they are actually doing.

Politics is a great big scam as elected officials are supposed to support the will of the people and each and every one of them, regardless of what side they are on has taken money or favor to sell the peoples will out.

Since the Reagan administration, education standards have been reduced as they need to keep people dumb as possible and distracted by making them think they are fighting an intangible enemy rather than watching what the politicians are actually doing.

Pull your heads out of the sand people. Stop watching the news, as it's being served up as a way to divide people. Learn to apply rational thinking techniques to determine exactly how you are being hoodwinked by the person you elected.
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A couple of terms people don't seem to understand
Posted:Sep 21, 2020 7:07 pm
Last Updated:Sep 21, 2020 9:59 pm
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Thirsty:

1. Too eager to get something (especially play)
2. Desperate
(Boy running up) "Ay gurl whasup? Look, you lookin real nice, can I get that young number?"

(Girl under breath) "Thirsty"

It's pathetic
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Closet Case:

Can be Gay or straight, but does not want their desires known. The desires are locked away in a closet. The most common term associated with it is discretion.

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Fun:

Something done for enjoyment, but not just sex. Fun is subjective as lots of activities can be fun.
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On people being homeless
Posted:Sep 17, 2020 2:52 pm
Last Updated:Sep 17, 2020 3:05 pm
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As a trans woman, I have been homeless a few times. I believe anyone who calls it out here has probably been everywhere than can looking for help locally. Alas, in our society those who have never been don't and never will get it. The sad thing is that those with the resources to help will ridicule the person and blame it on them. Those who would help in a second never have resources to make a difference.

People do stupid things like suggest a social worker. If a homeless person hadn't already been to one they wouldn't be talking about it here. The last time I went to a social worker, she suggested a great tree to stay under until I could figure it out.

Trans homelessness is even worse, as even in places with housing discrimination rules, the burden of proof is laid squarely on the back of the person being discriminated against. Yes, you can go to equal rights and file a complaint, but where does that get you? Well, you are homeless. It can take up to a year for equal rights to finish it's investigation, and even if you win, do you really want to rent from a person who will do everything they can to utilize other means to remove you after the fact?

Come on people. Before you give any shit to a person about it, take some time to investigate for yourself. Don't be a jerk before you know the whole story.
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